I have my first therapy appointment this year and I keep imagining myself
standing up to her and saying, "I like myself the way that I am and I don't need
fixing!" and walking out.
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| My cat is all, "Work it!" |
Thing is, I'll bet she'd respond, "You don't think I know that? The
question is, do you know that?"
Am I experiencing difficulty sometimes? Yes. But I've come up with ways
for coping. Like at work, I cannot concentrate at all with the hustle, the
bustle, the yammering, the radios, the gum chewing and snapping, and all of the
gossip that people feel the need to share with me. So I wear my headphones.
All the time. I worry sometimes if I'm being rude, but you know what? Why
aren't the other people worried they're being rude with all of their yammering
and chattering and mouth noises? People are worried they'll startle me if they
come to my desk, but hey, it happens. And I have not missed any phone calls and
even if I do, I have voice mail. And email for that matter.
There is this one busy-body in our office who is frequently up my butt
about those kinds of things, but I have to realize that there's no need to let
her get to me. She's not my dad. (Hi Dad! You have no internet and I don't
know your phone number! Mine is still the same! Call me!)
I find that now that I've moved to a quieter neighborhood and wear the
headphones at work, when I am out in public I'm a lot less nasty. I can handle
the crowds and the noise and be a little bit patient.
Also helping is the use of relaxation tapes. That way I can get to a point
once a day where I don't want to smack someone in the head for the fun of
it.
Between the hours of 10am-3pm, I'm usually in a pretty stinky mood though.
Is that normal?
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